Thursday, August 30, 2007

i'm ...

... in love with galway kinnell's poetry, spending too much time on facebook, writing poems, sending out subs, worrying, a little hungover for the first time in years, procrastinating, watching tennis, and happy that the lily editors have nominated my poem a man's guide to winning a woman's heart for best of the net.

Conception

Having crowed the seed
of the child of his heart
into the egg of the child
of her heart, in the dark
middle of the night, as cocks
sometimes cry out to a light
not yet visible to the rest,
and lying there with cock
shrugging its way out of her,
and rising back through phases
of identity, he hears her
say, "Yes, I am two now,
and with you, three."

-- Galway Kinnell

song of the day: hello goodbye by the beatles.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

it's official!

remember this? the collaboration project alex stolis invited me to do with him late last year? the chapbook of "letters"? remember that we sent it out to rubicon press in january? a month ago we heard that we had made it to the final round. and last night ... well, last night we heard that jenna and yvonne have decided to publish the chapbook in the fall! this is what jenna had to say:

After going through your collection several times with Yvonne, we have decided that we would very much like to publish your chapbook this fall. We found the poems you and Alex have written to be incredibly rich in imagery, texture and emotion -- an outstanding collection!
we are sooo, soooooo thrilled! and i am glad alex asked me to write that collection with him in the first place, and that i said yes. :)

so - small confessions and pebbles of regret will be out some time in october if all goes as planned - a kind of twin to my other chapbook. *g*

and thanks to everyone who was there during the process, and helped inspire me, and supported me in some way - the ITWS crowd, mainly. and to teresa for looking the manuscript over!


here are poems 5 (alex) and 6 (me):

8358 Sunset Boulevard
West Hollywood, California 90069

July 25, 19__


Dear J_______,

You told me you have dreams of Italy, bright-winged birds
and Byzantine churches. We made love in a bell tower and tasted
redemption—there were yellow hills, uneven fields, there was a sun
that created a halo above the clouds.

Now you say no to silence—believe only blues and reds will fill the void,
the void left when the last remnants of your first vision disappeared.
You say you don't want to hear the sound of water as it rushes down
the throat of First Avenue—

say you no longer care for words strung together, so carefully,
by boys who misunderstand the meaning of a wink.
You would rather comment on the beauty of stars, wait for them to fall
asleep, then leave by the backdoor without saying a word.

I was in a dream once—walking down Sunset Boulevard, a wine bottle
in my hand—there didn't seem to be an end in sight though I could see
the beginning very clearly. You were there too— Venetian-blonde hair
drying in the wind—the geometry of your face in contrast to an oblong moon.


Yours,

L_______

* * * * *

Gellertgasse 42
1100 Vienna

August 23, 19__


Dear L_______,

Yesterday the sun rose at 6.24. I carried its heat within me all day;
it triggered a longing for the sea that did not subside until I licked
salt off my thumbs, someone else's collarbone. I felt like a cradle,
a wave, a riptide in the night. You were the one I wanted to drown.
After sunset, nothing remained of the moon, the only thing that
could have plugged my well of dreams. This is what I saw—

I was bedded on pillows of kindling—throat zipped up, dry between
my legs. My tongue flicked out to spark a flame, set fire to neatly
stacked rows of corned pork, corned beef in cans with bevelled
edges. I watched it raging across the sacred rooms of childhood,
fuelled by bedtime stories, teddy bear fuzz. The attic went last,
with its nibble of mice, skeleton dolls dangling from sooty rafters.

I woke up kneeling, prayer on my parched lips. Frantic fingers
counted out colours like a wish list, all of them shades of red or
blue, all of them wearing a stranger's tired face. A siren wailed
an answer to my call. Hysterical shadows slithered down half-
closed curtains, pooled at my feet. I bit down hard on cold metal,
on glass; I sharpened blades. The noose tightened around my neck.


J_______


song of the day: happy by jenny lewis with the watson twins.

Monday, August 20, 2007

where i've been, what i've seen, what i've written - part ii

done editing. *phew*

more views


fallen



red skirt in the desert



sky on fire



blue red green



the vatican seems to have moved ...



hill's mills



pretty one



dusting the sky



the danube


more words

Aubade

Night bears witness
once again. To limbs weaving

webs of desire. To confessions
that need no grammar, no

words. A sheet has slipped
to the floor, pooled

like moonlight, like music
dripping off ivory keys.

Beneath a blanket,
hearts have synchronized.

A cupped hand gathers
breath, as if that could sustain

darkness a little longer.
But the Earth turns

as it always has, tilting
its face to the light. The sun

rises regardless, feeding
on the last stubborn stars.


song of the day: down boy by the yeah yeah yeahs.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

where i've been, what i've seen, what i've written - part i

i've been back "home" since wednesday evening, but as i went back to work thursday morning and i needed to catch up on lots of things, it took a while to get some photo editing done, and to get back to you. more to come. watch this space.

views


cactus close-up



spidery



who needs condoms?



the sad demise of mr cuddles



strange kind of lizard



blinded by the light



palm tree close-up



green


words

after the fever

after the fever
               the heat –

     burnt grass,
a scorched heart.

     she waits
               for a sudden spring,
     flowers
to rise like miracles
          from the dust,

something to believe in
          like wild melon
     by the roadside.

but this is the desert.

          hearts snap
     in half, clean
and sharp
               as two o'clock shadows.


song of the day: hey there delilah by plain white t's.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

*gone fishing*

well, not exactly fishing.
and not quite yet.
but i'm off tomorrow, for ten days.



song of the day: landed by ben folds five.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

where, what, who ...

where i've been:

hiking with my dad in the nockberge area of carinthia - blutige alm (bloody pasture) & anderleseen (anderle lakes):





hiking with mom, dad, and my brother martin in the nockberge area - königstuhl, windebensee:









in my hometown, spittal:



in klagenfurt's planetarium & minimundus, with birgit:



who i've met:





what i've seen:









who i've kissed:



what i've said goodbye to -
the backyard, our beautiful garden, the house where my great aunt greti used to live, and surrounding buildings as well as the cobblestone street i think of every time i look at my knees - because i learned to ride my bike there. all that will be gone soon, replaced by a supermarket:









more photos on flickr sooooon (i hope).

song of the day: capri calling by yello.