hush, hush darlin'

i took 1/3 of trittico retard both friday and saturday; slept really well friday night; not quite as well last night. the side effects the doctor mentioned are definitely bothering me: i feel nauseous and dizzy when getting up, for a good hour on both days. i took 2/3 of a pill today, because it is really important that i sleep well tonight - i have to get up at 5.15 tomorrow morning to get to amstetten, where i will be teaching business english for the next 6 weeks, by 8. it's about 120km from vienna, so a rather long train ride there and back every day.

can't say that my mood has been lifted by the meds, but that may be because of what i mentioned in my last blog post - significant date(s) this weekend. i had a panic attack at my friends' place last night, not the worst ever, but i felt dizzy and tense, with numb hands, for quite a while. i decided not to take one of the "emergency pills", though i might have done, had i been on my own.

i wish i could write, as in: write poetry, but i simply cannot. maybe it's because i can't concentrate on anything very well.

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babs, andi, and i went for a walk yesterday afternoon, at lobau, part of the donauauen nationalpark (danube floodplains n.p.), and i brought back some pictures (click to enlarge):












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been listening to the song below a lot this weekend, since i came across it while channel-hopping yesterday afternoon. got the old no doubt album out, which i had not done in years!

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

song of the day: don't speak by no doubt.