Tuesday, March 13, 2007

15 years, 1 month and 2 weeks ...

... after our first date, sepp and i decided to separate, last sunday. things had not been "right" for too long. while it has not completely sunk in yet, i already know that the hardest part will be dealing with the loss of the closest friend i have had for the best part of 15 years.

We Grow Accustomed to the Dark

We grow accustomed to the Dark --
When light is put away --
As when the Neighbor holds the Lamp
To witness her Goodbye --

A Moment -- We uncertain step
For newness of the night --
Then -- fit our Vision to the Dark --
And meet the Road -- erect --

And so of larger -- Darkness --
Those Evenings of the Brain --
When not a Moon disclose a sign --
Or Star -- come out -- within --

The Bravest -- grope a little --
And sometimes hit a Tree
Directly in the Forehead --
But as they learn to see --

Either the Darkness alters --
Or something in the sight
Adjusts itself to Midnight --
And Life steps almost straight.

Emily Dickinson

song of the day: ain't no cure for love by leonard cohen.

10 comments:

megalopoet said...

my darling, darling gal.
~hugs&hugs~ (2infinity&beyond4uboth)
xox,
~n~

dareisay the vizualz:
*seppkzws*
i could not up this, make.
cuz, it wuz.

Collin said...

I am so sorry to read this, Michi. I'm sending good thoughts and energy your way from across the ocean.

Colleen in Korea said...

Michi

Sweetie, I am so sorry to read this.
I am sending you a big hug.

Colleen


"What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from."

- TS Eliot,

rae said...

Michi,

I'm horrible at making people feel better - just know that I'm so so sorry to hear about this. I can't imagaine how something so special can fall apart - I wish you lots of inner-peace. I don't think time ever heals wounds, but it does make them hurt a little less.

Lots of hugs,
Rach

Sharon Hurlbut said...

Michi, I'm so sorry to hear this. You are in my thoughts. Lots of hugs and love.

Cheryl said...

I'm not good at making people feel better either but I always think that this, too, shall pass.

xo
Cheryl

SarahJane said...

hi michi - sorry to read this post. i'm sure you're torn up. things will work out as they should, one way or the other. best, sarah

michi said...

thanks for the good vibes everyone. i'm doing okay. some days are better than others. it was a mutual decision and there weren't any ugly scenes or anything, and we can still talk and be civil to each other.

hugs,
m

Sam of the ten thousand things said...

Very sorry for what you must be feeling. The best of thoughts to you.

michi said...

thanks, sam.
m